Can I be a DIVA? I have asked myself that question many a times. When you are morbidly obese you feel down, ugly and unworthy. All you see is how people react to you at all times. They react to you in restaurants, theatres, stores, even in your own home. People can be very cruel. You see the looks. You even at times, hear their hurtful comments. You begin to believe that you are fat, ugly and unworthy.
I am different, thank God! Even at my heaviest weight, I always felt that I was sexy, gorgeous and smart. I felt like I had an inner diva. I would visualize myself as Jennifer Lopez or Beyonce. I tried to think like Kim Kardashian or Marilyn Monroe. I knew that my outer body did not match my visualizations, but I never gave up believing that I would reach my ideal weight.
I always thought that if Oprah could achieve; what was stopping me from achieving too. These very private and positive thoughts kept me going. I dreamed of being able to buy sexy clothing. I envisioned wearing the perfect outfit. I believed that my rolls of fat would turn into beautiful curves.
I feel that we all have an inner diva. We must allow her to come out! Begin to visualize. Start to believe! Can you be a diva?
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